45 days and 46 nights in Bangalore

Life is funny. Ain't it? For those who don't understand, let me explain you with an example. About a month back I was asked to take up a project at Bangalore. I was at Chennai when I got this offer. I didn't wanna come to Bangalore due to some personal reasons but I had no choice. So I came here on 7th June 2009 leaving back a lot of memories at Chennai. I joined work the next day and life was getting better. It's been a month and half since then and a lot (really lots) of things had happened in my life. Now I have been asked to go back to Chennai, which I am not willing though but again have got no choice. I badly want to be here for some reasons but nothing was left in my hands now. The few things are worth a mention which I have written in this post.

5. Rajku's Pulsar. The biggest problem in Bangalore is commuting between places and man the public transport here is so pathetic. I suffered a lot during the first week but I was lucky to get Rajku's bike the next week. It was so helpful to me that I hardly remembered my baby(Honda Stunner) which was left unattended at my home. Rajku's bike was indeed special, the reason only a few of my friends know. Thank you Raj. I must also thank Karthikeyan aka Tapsu for roaming with me (to get the bike) during my first weekend in Bangalore.

4. Arun (My roomie). I am always fortunate in two things in life. First thing being friends and the other is roommates. I have had the best roomies anyone will ever get, be it at college (Karthik Sankar aka Oomai), at Chennai (Nivash, Faisal and Imran) and now at Bangalore it was Arun. It was a tough task for him to have me as his roommate since I am Mr. Untidy and Arun is exactly opposite. One funny example. I had to get up early everyday and rush to office in a hurry. I neither fold the bed sheets nor arrange the bedspreads and I leave my clothes scattered all over the room and go. The room will be a complete mess when I go to office and when I come back home I see them properly arranged and everything will be in place. Where in this entire world will you get a roommate like Arun. That's him. Now you know how hard it would've been for him to manage someone like me as his roommate. I have known this guy for 13 years and he is still the same. He is one of the best friends I have in my life.

3. My team. The first day at office was ho-hum. So the first impression of my team was not so fascinating. Most of them were Gulutes which made me so furious. But when days passed by, they got so close and I loved being a part of the team. The jaunt we guys went will remain as a beautiful memory forever. I was not so fortunate to be with them for some more time. I got released from my project and had to pack my luggages back to Chennai. My boss called me after reading my previous post. Holle.. Holle.. Nagerholle.

"I am really sorry Fahad. It's so unfortunate to release you suddenly. I read your blog and remembered you. So called you up to say thanks. You're a nice guy Fahad."
"Oh come on Prabin. I know I am a nice guy. Tell me something else. Tell me that you will take me back in your team" I thought of telling him that but instead just thanked him and hung the phone.

I had a brief chat with Usha the day I was released from my project.

"Hi Fahad. Sorry about your release. We'll miss you. I missed you a lot today."
"Hey Usha. Stop kidding me. You really missed me?"
"Yes Fahad. While coming back home, I missed you so much.:P"
"Hey half ticket. Now I know why you missed me. It's coz I was not there to drop you at home in my bike. Right?"
"Yes. You're a genius."

I never thought I would be working with a team like them and not in my wildest dreams I thought I would be sent back so soon. I had worked in my previous project for 18 months and now I am having the same feeling, the feeling when I quit my previous team, these guys made me feel the same way in just a span of two months. Thank you for the wonderful time. I will miss you guys.

2. Aravindh aka Blacky. As I mentioned earlier I am always fortunate in two things. Wherever I go, I get the best friends. No matter which part of the world it be. I was lucky to have him here and he was there for me all these 45 days. I must thank Raja for bringing him into my life. If not, I would have suffered a lot since I was lonely here. My relationship with this guy can't be narrated in words. It's divine than the true spirit of love. Tamilla sollanumna enga natpu kaathalai vida punitha maanathu. (Guys please please don't think that he is my boy friend and FYI I am staight :P. I am mentioning it clearly here coz of late I watched two hindi movies and both the movies had gay characters. Damn India and its gay rights). If there is one guy (other than me) who wishes me to stay back in Bangalore, it has got to be this guy Blacky. He knows everything about me and even though he is not so experienced in life, he was a good instructor. Machi don't worry. I have a great respect for this place. One reason being you and other reason you know. I will surely be back and we will have a rocking time once more.

1. During my brief stay in Bangalore, I guess it was 7th July, by far that was the worst and best day of my life. I was completely lost. People get completely lonely, when they lose themselves. I wasn't myself. I was getting lost in my own darkness. I didn't feel the happiness nor sadness. Blacky told me that until I find myself, I will never recover and nothing will happen before that. Losing me was easy but finding myself was really harder. The pain I went through couldn't be explained in words. Then I saw a girl. I have seen her many times before but this time it was different. I found myself in her smile. Her smile was a solace to me. She seemed like the most beautiful girl on this planet with the most infectious and captivating smile. She has got something. Something that can make a sad guy forget his worries in a jiffy and make him happy the next second. That moment. I still remember, my world went upside down. Just a couple of minutes back I was in so much pain and after seeing her everything just vanished like a flash. That was the day I started admiring her. I don't know her personally and we hardly talked with each other. I have seen many beautiful girls but she was special. Special in her own ways. I liked her so much that I went home, showed my mom her picture and said "find a match like this girl if you want your son to be happy forever". My mom just smiled and she knew what I meant. Some six months back I didn't believe in Almighty but Miyu proved it wrong. Till the moment I saw this girl, I didn't believe in destiny and now I was wrong again. We were destined to meet. I was made to come here for a reason. The reason being her and Blacky. I have come out of my worries completely now and they seem like a dust to me. Thanks to you Girl. The world is small. We'll meet again. Amen ;)

Update:- Before leaving Bangalore, I sent her a message thanking her for her role as one time succorer in my life and straightaway came the reply. "Hey fahad..." I didn't read the entire message. The first part alone made me float on air. A million thanks to you girl. Have a mast mast life.

Holle... Holle.. Nagarholle

My sincere thanks to
Ami, Hemendra, Prabin, Rajan, Ramesh, Ritish, Shobha and Usha (Half ticket)

My special thanks to
Satya

The hour hand and the minute hand in my watch were separated by 120 degrees when my mobile signaled me its time to get off the bed. This was the first time at Bangalore I ceased to sleep at 4am, the reason being the jaunt my office mates planned to Nagerhole. I saw my face in the mirror and was like a sleepy-eyed child with drooping eye-lids. I went to the loo and saw something terrible and shuddery. "Baaahhh!!!" I squawked and came running back to my bed just like the little zoozoo after seeing his dad's adonism in Vodafone ad. Arun, my roomie roused from sleep coz of my loud cry. He asked me what happened. "Machi, Cockroach da!" I answered politely. "$@#%&!@*% (Dollar at hash percentage and exclamation at star percentage)" was the reply from him and went back to sleep. I somehow managed to take a hot shower and Mr. Cockroach was still there doing his surveillance on me. I got three wake up calls from my mates and was ready by 5am. Arun got up and came to drop me at kundanahalli gate. Sun was yet to be seen when I reached my pick up point.

The tempo traveller halted its motion in front of me and Ritish (Our photographer) manifested from its exit to take a cool snap of me. We were made to wait for about 10 mins since Prabin was late. Everyone looked perked up after the early morning shower and we had a small chat. "Thala, enna ivlo periya bag? Enga kooda thaane vareenga. Illa apdiye oru vaaram trip adikka poreengala?" I asked Rajan. "No tamil. You will be banned" interrupted Ami with her gratifying voice. Thats her usual dialogue whenever Rajan and I talk in tamil in front of her. Usha with her outfit looked as if she was ready to go skiing. Shobha as usual was very energytic. Satya (Our co-ordinator) was busy on phone trying to make sure the SLA's were met for the trip. Prabin arrived with a big smile on his face. We then started and picked up Ramesh from his place and moved to Hemendra's Apartment. When I entered his house I was like WOW. I have never seen such a tidy and a perfect house in my life and all the credit goes to his wife (Courtesy: Hemendra).

It was fun right from the word go. In conformity with all trips we played dumb charades . We halted at Kamat to have our breakfast 1. Satya had planned for two breakfasts and this was our first. So the ten of us, oops. Sorry. Nine and half of us headed to Nagerhole after the breakfast. I don't know why I liked pulling Usha's legs and she often does the same to me as well. Half ticket - I reckon that will be her name henceforth in our team. Lol. We played till we got tired. The vehicle stalled in the way and we got down to admire the weather and the near by elephant training centre. Only then I came to know that Ramesh had a keen interest in Photography. I can empathize with him since I am a amateur photographer myself. On the way we saw many herds of deers. It was already noon when we reached our destination. About the place in a gist - Well protected forest area with qualites that can delight your senses. The drizzles made it more romantic and I just loved being there. Sathya and co went for a small trek and we started playing cricket splitting into two teams and it was so damn funny.

After heavy lunch, we headed to Irpu waterfalls. This was where we relished ourselves. We feasted our eyes on the Waterfalls but hard luck we couldn't get into to it due to the heavy cascade of falling water. We still got drenched in the mistlike drops from the falls. Rajan, Ritish and I donated our blood to three living beings, the three leeches. Ritish and I were fortunate to have them suck our blood in legs whilst Rajan gave away his blood from his thighs. Until this point I thought I was the most timid guy on earth but Satya proved it wrong. Seldom you see a married guy like him getting afraid of the leeches (or be it anyother insects for tat matter) and man o man he was so afraid that he kept examining his legs every two mins. We got back to the homestay and started playing cards till midnight. We were given a visual treat from Ramesh who made us watch the first five minutes of the most disgusting movie 'The Wrong Turn' and Satya almost puked. It was almost 2am when we all crashed.

We had to getup early the next morning for a long long walk. We came back and had the most palatable breakfast. We played till noon and left the place after lunch. It was fun, fun and only fun all the way. I just thought of staying there for another couple of days but fun is always limited right? While getting back, everyone had a short nap except me as I was listening to songs, mostly romantic numbers and for the first time during the trip I was in solitude. We then went to a bird sanctuary which was not so fascinating but was good. Prabin's 'Phenk do', Ramesh's 'Sikkander ka mukkandar' and Rajan's 'Abdullah deewane' makes me snigger if I think of them even now. We reached Bangalore at 9pm, had our dinner at pizza hut. It was a memorable trip to everyone of us. Especially me, who is new to the team and I badly wanted to amalgamate with my team mates. I was in all smiles when I got down from the vehicle since having lived in the ivory tower of seclusion for the past six months, I had the best comeback ever to my normal life. Thank you guys for the wonderful trip. I never actually wanted to come to Bangalore leaving Chennai since I thought I could never get into a team like my previous project but I was wrong. All I can say is that I had a marvellous time with you people and you guys simply rock. Just a bit unlucky but yea everything happens for a reason. Have a mast mast life. Amen. :)

Lucky lucky star Vamanan Lyrics

Well again I am back to lyrics but this time unlike the previous song this one is a typical Yuvan fashion - heavy beats, nasal voices and repetitive notes. When I listened to this for the first time I thought it was written in some other language but lately did I realise that it was indeed tamil. With rap interludes forming part of the song, you suddenly realise how essential the accompanying lyric booklet is as that is the only way you're ever going to understand the words. I searched for the lyric online but couldn't find one. So I sat to jot down the lyrics myself which I assume is 99% correct. Enjoy the lyrics. I feel this song is completely narcistic.. And I couldn't comprehend the final rap thing. Sorry if you find that wrong.

Film:- Vamanan
Music:- Yuvan Shankar Raja
Singers:- Blaaze, Suvi and Mohd Aslam

Ah ah ah ah..
Ah ah ah ah..
Ha haaa..
Yeah yeah yeah yeah..
Huh huh huh huh..

Ini engum eppothum.. Ivan ettu pookkaalam..
Vaa endru koopiduthe... Valamaana ethir kaalam..
Ithayangalai pidithu vittaan.. Ivan dhisai inimel sukra dhisai..
Ilaingnargalai kavarnthuvittaan.. Ivan pesum vaarthaiyum iniya isai..
Ada lucky lucky lucky lucky staru kodi katti parakka poraane..
Ivan pogum thooram very very far uh vaanathai valaikka poraane..

Box office vasool kooduthe.. Hair styleum style aaguthe..
Ilam pengal ithayam ivan uruvam tattoovaai maaruthe..
Coffee shop pogavum kooda private jet thaan kilambuthe..
Six pack bodya paatha sixteen ellam polambuthe.. hey hey..
Ada lucky lucky lucky lucky staru kodi katti parakka poraane..
Ivan pogum thooram very very far uh vaanathai valaikka poraane..

Kooduthe.. Aanathe..
Kooduthe.. Aanathe..

Makkal vaasi koottam kooduthe.. BBC um pugal paaduthe..
Ivan thodum tissue paper kooda pala latcham kodi yelam poguthe..
London wax museum um kooda ivan silai seyya theduthe..
Adada antha hollywood kooda call sheet kettu thorathuthe..
Ada lucky lucky lucky lucky staru kodi katti parakka poraane..
Ivan pogum thooram very very far uh vaanathai valaikka poraane..
Ithayangalai pidithu vittaan.. Ivan dhisai inimel sukra dhisai..
Ilaingnargalai kavarnthuvittaan.. Ivan pesum vaarthaiyum iniya isai..

Ada lucky lucky move ana move ana base now let the (dash) make your move around..
Ada let me let me let me show my brain now, if you wanna sing now move around..

Preaching to the converted..

This world is full of surprises.. Ain't it? One such surprise to me was this reply to my posts “Welcome to Chennai Airport” and “Good bye Chennai” by my bestest friend Karthik Vasudevan a.k.a KV. Just have a look at this link.

http://karthikvasudevan.com/

I should have posted this long back but I don't know what stopped me. You rock machi. You are a top bloke mate. Cheers. :)

Kanavugal Meipadum..

Disclaimer: I do not take any responsibility if you go huffy after reading this post. This post has no logic whatsoever, its the most senseless post I have ever written but I hope you like reading it.

"I am already late da. The bus will leave sharply at 7 pm and its already 5.45 da. Ride the bike fast dammit"I yelled at A.S.Karthikeyan with a precipitated voice.
"Dei just relax. We are almost there da. Did you take your passport and visa?" answered ASK.
"Yep. I checked that more than a million times"
After 10 minutes, we reached CMBT, Chennai Mofussil Bus Terminus. "The check-in time is 6pm. Just hurry up" ASK told me.
"Okay machan. Thanks for the drive. See you in a week. I will miss you. Tata". I replied in a hasty tone and vanished in the crowds.

The security check and the immigration got over in about 40 minutes and I was in my seat 15 mins prior to the departure. I was sitting next to an old lady and we both exchanged smiles. "I am the most happiest person in the world" I told myself. I am all set to go to sydney now and gonna meet Mehru tom morning. What else can I ask for? Having not met her for a year and half I was so enthusiastic to see her. I just closed my eyes and remembered the last time we both met eye to eye. December 8th 2007. The first time I saw my angel after proposing my love to her. I smiled when those moments flashed in my 70mm mindscreen. The long talks we had in the terrace watching the stars leaning on my shoulders, the coffee kisses and many more. 18 months have passed since then and now I am gonna see her again. Only one person in this whole universe knew how much I suffered to get the visa and that's me. I went to almost every travel agency in chennai, roamed from morning to evening for one full week and got what I asked for at the final moment. When I opened my eyes, the bus conductor was glaring at me.

"Boss neenga oruthar thaan innum ticket edukkala"
"Oops sorry thalaiva. Asanthu thoongitaen. Sydney ku oru ticket kodunga. How much?"
"18,495. Sillaraya kodunga boss"
"Oh inthaanga"
"Bus kilamba poguthu. Ellarum seat belt pottukonga" the conductor uttered in a loud voice.
"Conductor, bus ethana manikku sydney poye serum?" A guy sitting in front of me questioned the conductor.
"10 am" replied him.
"Naan kekkarathukulla oru punniyavaan kettutaan. Thoonguda fahad. Kalaila seekiram elunthirikkanum" That was me talking to me. :P

I switched on my new silver ipod nano and shruthi's voice tasted like sugar. The song was 'Unnai kandane muthal murai ennai tholaithene mutrilumaai...' And when I got up it was around 8am the next morning and the bus halted for breakfast in Westminster abbey. You might wonder why on earth the bus went to a place in London while it was supposed to head to sydney. Even I had the same feeling since I didn't know what was happening around me. I dont usually take breakies so I went down to have a cigarette. The bus started again and I got the window seat since the old lady got down at Westminster abbey. When the bus was leaving the bus stand, I saw a girl through the window and she resembled Mehru in every single way. Same beautiful brown eyes, same appealing face that has all the qualities that delight the senses of every single guy, same short but excellent hair as that of Jo's in New york nagaram song. "No. No it can't be her. She will be waiting for me in sydney bus stand. How come she is here? No way. Fahad something is wrong with you" I told myself. I just turned back to confirm if its her and YES. It was my mehru. She was searching for the bus am coming in. "Goddamn. Driver stop the bus. Please hold on" I cried for the bus driver to stop the bus but he never listened. I went to the conductor. "Please stop the bus. I need to get down at this place. Please." I begged him. He replied in a very polite tone. "Cool it young man. You cannot get down here since your destination is only sydney. We will have to answer the immigration authorities if they ask the whereabouts of you. So please take your seat. You will be allowed to get down only at Sydney Mofussil Bus Stand". "F&^k the authorities" I got irritated by his reply. I called mehru on her phone.

"Baby, where are you?" I asked her.
"I am waiting for your bus in westminster abbey bus stand" She answered.
"Holy shit. I just saw you. The bus had moved out of the bus stand and its heading to sydney. Okay. I will get down at sydney and will catch an auto and come here. You just wait for me. okay"
"No problem at all. I had waited for 18 months to see you. Just 4 hours wont harm me. I love you" She replied
"I love you too baby. Sorry. Will see you soon" I dropped the call.

Pannada, porambokku, %^%&%&*#^##$%#%$^#%$6 Its me scolding the bus driver and the conductor. The bus finally reached sydney. "Sydney Mofussil Bus stand ellam erangu. Ithoda vandi guindy stoppingla thaan nikkum" the conductor announced. And then I thought, "Oh Chennaila guindy irukka mathiri sydneylayum oru guindy irukku pola". To my surprise Karthik Vasudevan was waiting to receive me at sydney bus stand.

"Dai Iyeru, nee ennada panra inga?" I asked him.
"Nee thaane da sydney poraennu sonnaen. Athaan unna receive pannalaamnu vanthaen" Its karthik.
"Dai goiyala. You were in manchester right? Eppadi manchester la irunthu sydney vantha?" Its me.
"Share auto la mama. Just one and half hours thaan da travel". That was karthik.
"Seri seekiram kilambu machi. I got to go back to london. Mehru anga enakaaga wait pannittu irukka. Please its urgent"
"Seri vaa nair kadaila oru tea adichittu pogalaam. Sydneyla ithu thaan famous tea kadai machi" Iyer told me.
"Machi enakku tea vendaam. Strong ah oru coffee sollu" I told Iyer.
"I thought you always liked tea. Ippo enna thideernu coffee" Its Iyer.
"Athellam periya kathai machi. Atha unakku aproma explain panraen" I blushed thinking about the coffee kisses ;).

Ada kadavule. Enna suthi enna nadakkuthu. Oru pakkam australiala irukka vendiyava UKla irukka. Innoru pakkam UKla irukkavendiyavan australiala irukaan. Oru elavum puriyalaye. I thought while having coffee aana en manasu poora mehru thaan iruntha. Avala ithana naal kalichi paaka poroomra santhoshathula I got into the auto. Ennidam naan illai. After two hours we were there in Westminster abbey bus stand. I saw my angel waiting for me. I called her mobile, she picked up and answered. I watched her closely, too closely like noone in the entire world would have watched his love closer than I did. Avaloda ovuru asaivayum, avaloda uthattoda asaivu, aval mudiyai sari seyyum azhagu, avaloda chinna chinna asaivugal. 18 maasam eppadi itha ellathayum naan paakkama uyiroda irunthaennu enakku theriyala. She sighted me and came running towards me, just like meera jasmin comes running to see bharath in the movie nepali. Avala odi poye katti pidikka ponaen, someone patted my back.

"DAI MAMA. VARIYA EN KOODA?" I turned back and it was ASK. I got up from bed. I was in F-8, Ground floor, Parson complex, Saidapet, Chennai - 15. It took a moment for me to realise that what I just saw, Mehru, UK and Australia were just a dream.
"Illada. You carry on. Have a good time with your gal. Vandiya paathu otittu po. Shakthiya kettatha sollu" I replied.

It never felt like a dream to me. I got back to sleep and all I did was a million dollar smileeeeeeeeeeee and said I love you mehru. :)

Author's Note:
Please intha mathiri oru mokkayaana post ah ungala padikka vachathukku ennai mannikkavum. Velai illa. Athaan ippadi ellaam. Sorry for wasting your precious time for reading a mokkai blog like this. I truly apologize. It was just a dream and I felt it real and funny. Atleast this dream meant something to me. Athukunnu naan psycho aayitaennu ellam ninachidatheenga. Antha alavu innum pogala. Thanks for reading. Cheers. :)

The Differentiae

I recently joined the CAT classes conducted by TIME Institute. A funny incident happened today and I just wanted to drop a line in my blog. Today's class was about Percentage, Profit and Loss. I was into batch C along with four other guys. Our batch had no gals as I anticipated. We had a combined class with batch B fellows for the PPL session and that batch had about 6 to 7 pretty women. The class was exciting and in the course of action I got completely engrossed in the session. The guy who always sits next to me, Dheena from some XYZ college kept on talking obnoxiously during the session and most of them were no where related to the topic that was dealt in the class. I kept asking him to be attentive in the class but he never actually listened to me. I stopped to pay attention to him and started working on the problems. The class got over at 8.30PM and we all packed our material and left the room.

While leaving, I paid close attention to the gals who were still sitting in desks and were working some problems. One gal said to the other, "Hey, this is not the right way to proceed the problem. When the discount and the profit are same... bla bla bla.." She continued. The other gals who left the room were also broaching the same thing. "Arjun invested Rs.2000 on 5% stock and his annual income will be ... " They rambled on. On the other side, Dheena continued his talks. "Ji, inikku namma aalu dress olunga pottutu varale. T-shirt kum bottom kum matching eh illa". I gave him a stern look and replied "Goiyala, onnu en aalu nu sollu illa un aalu nu sollu. Athu enna namma aalu?" "Ada, athu illa ji, ethukku pirichi pesanumnu paathaen. Avlo thaan" That was Dheena. I didn't answer him this time as so many thoughts were running on my mind and kept on walking towards my bike. "Ji, give me the keys. Let me drive." "Dai ennathukku? Ponnunga munnadi scene podava? Olunga pinnadi ukkanthu va. Key ellam thara mudiyathu. En aalu ava bike edukka vara. So naan koncham scene podanum" That was me.

Dheena looked at me furiously and said, "Ennamo koncha neram munnadi Vivekaanandar cousin brother mathiri pesuneenga? Ippo ennamo en aalu nu solreenga? huh?" I replied him, "athu illa machi. Rendu perume ore aala paatha prechana aayidum. So nee t shirt potta figure ah paaru naan chudi potta figura paakuraen. Deal okay va?". We both chortled and while driving back home I told him this,

"Oru vishayam gavanichiya? Class mudinchathum ponnunga ennamo naalaikke CAT exam vara mathiri ennama discuss panni padichittu irunthaanga. Aana nammala paaru. Intha figure enakku antha figure unakkunu vetti thanama pesittu irukkom. Ithula santhoshamaana vishayam ennenna, namma mattum illa. Ulagathula irukkura ella pasangalum ippadi thaan and ulagathula irukkura ella ponnungalum appadi thaan. Aandavanin padaippu appadi"

"Athu ennamo vaasthavam thaan ji"

"This is called Differentia" I answered him.

Sumi Darling... :)

My sincere thanks to Sirajudeen and Sadaf for bringing the most beautiful angel to earth.

"Hey, Do you know who I am?", I asked my darling.

"Theriyathu", Sumi replied in tamil.

"Oh, that's great. You speak tamil as well eh? Go ask your mom who I am"

Without any hesitation she ran to her mom and asked, "Mamma, kaun hai yeh?"

"Yeh aapka chacha hai meri beti, fahad chacha" responded her mom.

She came back to me and replied, "You are fahad chacha" and ran away.

That was the first time I spoke to her. I didn't know then, that she were the angel I was searching for, since ages. She had come down to India with her parents because of her grandpa's demise. I had to get back to chennai to leave for my college reunion, so I lied to my dad that I got to attend an important meeting at office and left Ranipet.

A month passed by and I was confined on all sides by problems. I was used to the problems since it was in my blood and name. My college mates usually mock at me telling that if you search for the meaning of my name in any dictionary, it would be written as the guy with ATP(Anytime Problems) just like the ATM. That was a different life altogether when I was at college. Take it easy policy was my mantra then and so I never gave a damn to these things and my problems. But now things were so different and to my astonishment even I was so frigging different from my college life. I started to feel anxious, distressed and troubled. "Hey come on, this isn't you. Why have you changed? What made you change? Why are you so concerned about problems all of a sudden?" I told myself. I was completely thrown to a corner. I thought this was the end. End of everything. "Are you alright?" asked every single person I met. My mom started to worry about me and my future and in a jiffy, my life was filled with complete darkness.

Then came my angel, my guardian angel to rescue me from all the troubles. I met her again at chennai. My brother was pushing off to qatar and so I went to his in-law's place to see him. My bhabhi made the most delicious biriyani I ever had in my life and before I could start to eat, Sumi interrupted. "fahad chachu, Khaane ke duva bhole kya?". I blinked. Sumi's Mamu also named fahad, gave me a stern look. I could capture what he was thinking from the way he looked at me. "Dhamma thoondu kolanthaikku theriyuthu, ippadi kadaa maadu mathiri valanthirukka unakku theriyalaye da." I gave her a embarrasing smile and started to eat. I started to play with her and I forgot everything around me. Everything in the sense, EVERYTHING. I ceased to pay attention to any other thing other than her. I stopped attending calls on my mobile and I never bothered to read the sms that beeps once in ten minutes. I started to admire her, adore her and love her. I was completely attracted by the way she talked tamil, the way she plays pranks on me, the way she smiles , the way she sticks her tongue out when I take a snap and the way she calls me 'fahad chachu'. And before leaving to the airport, I told my bro that I will take Sumi with me in my bike. Before fahad maamu started to say NO, my bro said "Okay", without any reluctance. Sumi sat behind me and hugged me tight and I started driving. I knew I talked complete nonsense while I was driving but I wanted to make sure that she wasn't bored. That was the time when I realised that this was something special. The kid you love the most, the kid who came to rescue you from all agitations, the kid who is your angel, sitting behind you and hugging you tight. I am out of words to explain how I felt. After sending him off, I was a bit hesitant to go my brother's in-law's place since I hardly knew them. But there was a readymade answer with me, and that's SUMAIYA.

I started to visit her place more often and even my mom asked me, "Ennada, adikkadi anga poyittu vara? Enna aachu? Nee thaan family koodave mingle aaga maatiye?". I smiled and gave the readymade answer I already had. I slowly recovered from all my problems and finally I was back to my normal life, completely. Sumaiya came into my life when I was fired from my project along with four of my mates, the person I loved the most disappointed me, one of the few guys I trusted completely, let me down, I was totally demoralized and patronized about my career and future, I had no shoulder to cry upon and I didn't know what to do and where to go. But now even though I have all these problems I simply laugh at them. She was the medicine/cure/whatever for my problems. There is a saying in tamil, "Kadavul oru kathavai moodinaal innoru kathavai thirappaar"(If God closes a door, he will open a new door). YES, he did close all the doors but in return he opened the most beautiful door that I longed for. There was a time when I disbelieved the existence of God but now He proved me wrong.

And to you Sumaiya (I know you need to grow up a bit before you can understand what I really meant in this post), I owe you my life. This fahad chachu owes you his life. You changed my life upside down for which I owe you big time. I will do anything under the sun for you. This fahad chachu will be there for you, forever. You will always be the special child to me, even if I get a baby girl like you in the future(Insha Allah). And the next time I meet you, am gonna get you the biggest Barbie doll which you asked me for. I promise you my dear.

And for you guys who are dejected in life, there is always a solution for any problem in this world. If one door is closed, the other door will be made open for you. I am glad I found the door quite soon but if you are disappointed with life, try to figure out the door which is already opened especially for you. Let peace prevail. :)

Oh yes. I forgot to mention about the other angel. Hamzu Chanda. I spent equal time with him just like being with his sister.

The kavithai I wrote about her:

ஒரு முத்தம் கொடு என்றேன். அவளும் சிரித்து கொண்டே முத்தம் கொடுப்பது போல் என் கன்னத்தை கடித்துவிட்டாள்.வலியையும் பொருட்படுத்தாமல் அவளை கட்டி அணைத்து கொண்டேன். இவளை போல்

ஒரு மகள் எனக்கும் பிறக்காத என்ற ஏக்கத்துடன்.

And finally when she was about to leave India, I asked her "Just remember this fahad chachu, will you?" Sumi replied, "I will not remember you" with her tongue sticking out. I smiled and asked her a huggie. She hugged me, I kissed on her cheeks and said, "I will miss you, sumi darling."